I would never imagined a year ago that I would be thinking about happily ever after, but here I am. Life is wonderful, crazy, amazing and gracious…and yes, life is good.
PROMPT ONE | ONE WORD
Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you? (Author: Gwen Bell)
I think the word that best encapsulates 2010 for me is change – everything changes, sometimes you just have to hold on until the sun peaks out from behind the clouds and everything looks different.
For 2011 I think my word will be love.
So beautiful – not THE dress, but amazing. My baby girl is gettting married in July. I can hardly believe so much time has gone by, she’s all grown up. Love her, she is so beautiful and smart and stubborn and wonderful. What a roller coaster parenting is – never knew.
2009 was perhaps the most challenging year of my life. I started the year knowing my marriage was over and ended it with my divorce becoming final (12/23). I believed he was the love of my life, and my heart has been broken. Not an experience unfamiliar to the human race, but not at all fun when it’s you experiencing it. Now I get to move on. And, just to give me one good push on my way – he is moving in with a woman. So, not fantasies about reconciliation…it is really, really, really over.
I spent the first half of 2009 not sleeping. In January I realized I could not keep my family going and safe alone – my youngest son has severe nonverbal autism and doesn’t sleep and sometimes acts irrationally. So we searched, found and then fought to partner with a group home. It was very emotional and difficult, but we found the most wonderful small home (just 4 boys) with a staff of 40 and open, authentic, caring hearts. My son moved in at the beginning of September and we share him – literally. He spends every other day with us and sleeps there every night but one. So every night but one I get to sleep.
Sleep is not an easy discipline when you’ve lost the habit – but I’m willing to try. I am finding that as my body begins to rest, my mind is relaxing. My days are less crisis management and more reflective. I am beginning to find my place in my own life again. Sleep is so essential to human physical and mental health. I learned that when a person has a mental health crisis that requires hospitalization the first thing the professionals do is put them to sleep. The professionals know sleep is always a deficit for those in crisis. I’m looking forward to inhabitting a body and a life that is not in crisis.
2009 is also the year my oldest daughter got engaged. She will be married in July to a really nice young man. I will be the mother-of-the-bride. Wow!